a bit of looking back.…a bit of looking forward….
I had big plans come new years.
I have awesome and beautiful 2016 planner/workbooks and I had every intention of sitting down with them new years eve, with my sleeping babe in one arm, and getting stuck in.
But I came down sick that eve and I spent the next few days lying around (as much as my baby allowed) watching movies and feeling rotten.
Instead of planning, reflecting and other productive and spiritual pursuits….I’d pretty much just been, grumpy, sick and unclean.
So I’m a week late…and I’m clean now…but here’s a sum-up….which is far more my style than the step-by-step plan I thought I was going to do.
A wee reflection on the year that’s been:
What I’m most proud of:
–Becoming a mum to my beautiful baby girl – I barely have words. The idea of motherhood had terrified me most of my adult life till the last couple of years. And actually it feels so crazily normal to me to be my girl’s mama, which is not what I expected. Goes without saying that I love her to bits.
–Training up my first G.R.I.E.F. Guide to take people through the G.R.I.E.F. process. This was something I dreamt of for the future and seeing it happen now has been amazing. Josephine is utterly brilliant and watching her learn to gracefully guide people through to healing has been incredibly inspiring.
What has been most challenging:
-Being back in NZ. It’s not something I had planned on and it’s certainly not permanent. Ironically, seeing as it’s ‘home’, being here is one of the only places I don’t really feel at home.
–Being away from and out of touch with the community I’m used to – the entrepreneurial/spiritual/take-responsibilty-for-your-life types I was used to being surrounded by. This has probably been the hardest thing for me and often leaves me feeling very isolated here.
So there have been wonderful things….and there have been challenges that light up places in myself where I need to look deeper, to love, and to make changes if necessary.
So 2016….what is to come:
-The biggest change personally (that I foresee that is, who knows what life has in store for me) is a move away from NZ again later this year.
-Work-wise…More creativity, more authenticity, more clarity here in my writing. There have been areas of real stuckness here for me as I grow and I plan to work through those. Usually my default at these times is to go into hiding (stop writing) but enough with that.
I’m not a planner at all. I prefer to have some ideas of what I want and where I want to go but also to very much trust the flow of life. This has worked amazingly for me thus far – and I’ve always loved the potential of the place where you have no idea what comes next….because it means anything could come next. So while I do have plans for here….and for you….I’ll let you see them as they unfold. 🙂
I wonder what your reflections look like. What you’re most proud of in 2015. What you were most challenged by and how you are growing from/can grow from them.
I wonder what you see for yourself this year -2016.
Whatever that is, whatever it looks like, sending you much new year love,
Kristie
xx
